Today, I’ll see Him off…
Before the dawn, on this, Your day, I once again lament the swiftness of time, and how it does not wait for me to feel at ease with Your absence. How it continues, unswayed by my protests, unmoved by my tears. And yes, I do spill tears for the loss of You, even when I know You can never be lost– to me or to anyone. For, Apollon, You are the measure of this world, and it may not function without Your power, coursing through the currents of all life and matter.
I am grateful for the attention You have shown me, Aegletes, even as You shall wane from my awareness, and I am grateful for the care You have expressed. As You complete Your journey, I hope You will think of me, remembering my love for You, and knowing that our home awaits You, come spring.
There are a few reasons that I’ve always thought this day was a beautiful day to look forward to, but since it has also become the final day/night of the Aegletia, it has taken on a somber quality which lends itself well to solemn goodbyes. A beautiful day, indeed, and also my least favorite day, for at the end of it, I’ll say farewell to my Lord, until we meet again on a cool, spring morning.
But, though His most immediate presence will be absent from our world, the underlying power, which threads and harmonizes the Universe, is and will remain forever present. These are the same basic resonances to which individual natural phenomena and individual lives are bound. That intrinsic spark of Apollon remains within us, and all the world. Through it, may we commune with the very core of ourselves, as well as with Him, and in this way, may we pass the harsh season.
As we say our goodbyes, it is good to remember that we are not alone in experiencing this absence. The coming months are a good time to reaffirm our connections to those we know and love; to really cultivate those connections, so that when Apollon returns home, He will have many harmonious homes to return to. In so doing, we may prepare for the eventual, and welcomed reintegration of His immediate presence into our lives.
Hail to Apollon Aegletes!
Hail to Apollon Hyperboreios!
Hail to Apollon Anax!
Hail and farewell!
— Columbine [Aegletia, Day 9, 2019]