As a Sister of the Treasury, I have made a commitment to bringing Apollon’s will into the world, as best I can, to the best of my understanding. This is my life’s purpose, and it fills me with joy. It also fills me with joy to see others doing His work. And I am so grateful to be a part of a Sisterhood, and a wider community who loves and honors Him. His will is for all people. There are no exclusions, save for the ones deep in an individual’s heart. Their own will determines whether or not they accept His invitation, but the invitation is open to all. And no one has to accept, but we do have to accept that everyone is welcome, from those we do not know, to those we may not like.
Everyone is welcomed by Apollon to become more than they currently know they can be. Everyone is welcome to heal. Everyone is welcome to change. Everyone deserves the chance for purification. And His arms are open. There is no force that can sever His connection to a person who mutually cultivates it, though, it must be cultivated. It must be nourished and warmed, each by our own conscious development. Which means, that we should seek not to look toward each other and our individual accomplishments, under the scrutiny of culturally-enforced false competition.
If we are all doing the work He set out for us to do, by His decree, then we should focus on our own work, rather than hover over the accomplishments of others. Comparison ultimately leads to insecurity, anxiety, envy, or all of the above and more. Each person is on a different level of individual development, with differing skill levels for different talents. There is no Apollonian monolith, thankfully, nor should there be, and we should not seek to create one, either purposefully or accidentally.
The emotions that can be stirred up by unhealthy comparison are in direct conflict with many important Apollonian qualities. Envy is a black hole that lets no light escape. Insecurity and anxiety are its handmaidens, dim stars caught in its effect. There, can not also thrive empathy, kindness or compassion. In the face of such forces, neither can cooperation, co-leadership, or simply any acceptance of others doing work that was not given to another to do. There is truly enough work to go around. We needn’t complicate things by driving our minds into competition, rather than expressing our own commitment and love for Apollon.
In times like this, we must embrace our Lord’s purification. We must let go of preconceived notions of grandeur, for His work is not about us. His work is the sum total of all His orchestration, all the moving parts He’s nudged into place. Every cog in the machine working to bring His vision of a chaotic, yet somehow ordered Universe to life, through no vehicle other than all of our individual talents. This is community, and communities thrive neither on envy, nor the suspicion that envy breeds in others.
Communities can benefit from striving to be places of homecoming, safety, and healing. We must allow ourselves to be mastered by Apollon, and shaped by His example– to focus on our tasks, and ultimately, to grow in our entire worldview. A way toward this, is to sincerely embrace the notion of change, for if we can not imagine ourselves differently, it becomes that much more difficult to bring a new self, with new and healthier habits and values, into manifestation. Purification is part of the work, and we must not exclude ourselves from the paradigm of growth now lapping at the shore of the unknown world to come. Apollon will keep the way bright for us, as we traverse the fallow grounds awaiting His seed to be planted.
— Columbine [Aegletia, Day 1, 2019]